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NEW LJ [28 May 2005|09:06pm]

i basically made a new lj. cause im bored of this one.?? I don't know I'm just bored and stuff.

I added everyone on my friends list and I think all you have to do is add me back.






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So Please. Love Me. Take Me. Hate Me. [24 May 2005|05:56pm]
k so im having the most horrible, everything. nothing is going right. thers a show tonight and I dont know whos going I lost meaghans number.

I got back from calgary today and that was pretty okay but i really miss like emily and laura and syd and like I really like this guy. nad emily told me so much about him and introduced us and stuff. but she told me all this great stuff about him and he seems like a really great guy who would want a long relationship and yeah. I can't wait to get to know him. but it's really just to bad that he likes one of my best friends. yeah I found that out and I almost started crying. I get my self too exctied over these things like I really do want a relationship and I really think hes the right guy and im really upset. and she doesn't realize how much I envy her and how much I wish I was like her. sure she might have issues in her life but everyone does and she handles them so well nad I love her so much. I wish you knew that. and im sorry for everything I did to you before.

and today I have no idea whats going on with the show. I want to go and as far as I know ashley and leanne are going but they have other friends and I dont want to be there just like by myself. im trying to get a hold of meaghan and I can't

but I think that the worst thing is. I have to go to another funeral. my greta uncle died. I dont know when the funeral is but its coming. first my great grandma who I LOVED SO MUCH. I swear to god. you don't know how hard it fucking was to look down at her in her coffin and say goodbye to her one last time. and on thursday I had to go to another funeral for one my great aunts. and that made me upset. so what thtas fucking. 3 fucking funerals in two fucking months

I really need someone right now. I like I feel so alone, and I wish I had someone to just hold me and talk to me. but I feel like the biggest idiot alive.

I really don't want to feel anything anymore. It just makes me screwed up. I really want someone right now so bad. I want everything. I want to be dead I want to see my dad. I want to be alone. I'm so fucked up right now. Im really thinking about starting drugs again just to help forget about things. but I'm trying so hard not to give in and I could get them so easily and it's tempting and i'm still trying to hold on to what I have and that's not alot.

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Those Damn Straight-Edge Kids And Their Hardcore Music. [03 May 2005|07:02pm]

[24 Apr 2005|02:36pm]
I just lost someone very close to me today. and if i don't talk to you or i'm mean or whatever. don't take it personally. It's nothing to with you. I just can't control my emotions.

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Kill At Will [30 Mar 2005|10:44am]

so I found these pictures on deannas photobucket from when  we went to the Forks. I love them.


Numba One StunnaCollapse )

I THINK I LOST MY RETAINER. which is not cool.

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Stamped [19 Mar 2005|11:37pm]


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[19 Mar 2005|10:39pm]

Cutest Thing Ever


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[18 Mar 2005|07:53pm]
So I had lasagna today. which is amazing I love it

and I'm going to go and rent movies and SOME VIDEO GAMES later.

so yeah. basiclly a good friday.

Shiiieettt volleyball practice tomorrow at CMU. poopsicles

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[06 Mar 2005|03:27pm]
i'm trying to change my layout for journal os if its effed up. you know why.

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It's only gonna be 100% HARDCORE . just shittin ya. [25 Feb 2005|04:51pm]
As I Lay Dying
All That Remains
+1 more TBA


Tuesday, April 5
The Collective Cabaret

$16.00 adv/$18.00 door

Tickets on sale Thursday, March 3 at SK8, Music Trader and Into the Music

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Friends Only [23 Jan 2005|06:52pm]

Friends Only

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